regrets....

i expect this journal to be self contradictary..... where every statement will just contradict the previous one or so.... or at least try....



everyone wished they had lived their life with no regrets.... trying not to look back and say "i shouldn't have done that".... but things have happened and looking back, thinking that things could have been better won't make any difference about the future.... but then.... you can't help yourself but regret about it.... even though you know that it's no use....

pain is inevitable.... but suffering is optional.... yet it's so hard to not take suffering as an option.... you try to move on... yet sooner or later, it'll hit back on you....


okay okay... i feel crappy and i derno dee.. hahahhaa...


reminds me of lighthouse family's song... high... hehehe....


When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high

Though it's darker than december
What's ahead is a different color
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night

At the end of the day we remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love



and i suddenly feel i like songs that sing about ppl getting high.... or something lidat....

jeng jeng jeng.....



"today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday... to analyse is to worry... and it has become a habit.... that's why we're unhappy... kwa..."




LPPL..... love peace, peace love yaw...\m/

i've gotta kill this habit of mine...

here i am.... doing ntg in particular when i have a lab report due in 2 hours time... and the clock keeps ticking... yup.... not a good thing....

i dun think procrastinate is the best word to define my actions.... yeah... delaying a report i could have done last week is procrastinating.... well... i think i'll just stick with procrastination for now....

derno.... i had started doing my report last week..... i did bits and parts of it slowly.... hahahaha.... making time to check multiply.... look for monopoly sets that i want to own..... check out some forums.... do bits and parts of my algebra and calculus homework.... going out to buy supplies... and what not.....


resulting in me.... still sitting in the living room... typing this journal out when i should be doing my lab report... yup.. i belum tidur... oh... and i even slept through half an hour during my lab practical on monday..... hahahahaa..... the teacher was in forng explaining about what we were goanna do and i was sitting at the bench at the back dozing off.... i only woke up when they started to take ammonia samples.... the smell is so..... wasabi~ish... you know.... ummmm.... the fumes makes it feel as though it burns ur nose.... something like wasabi.... only diff is the smell is more foul....


hahahahaaha..... i think i'll sleep during algebra mia lecture later... hehehhee... lalalalala....

okay now off to do my lab report.... lalalallala....



KKYLP..... lalalallaa..... jeng jeng jeng....